Men Opening Hearts to Jesus
new Edition 2018
When I was 16 I joined the Sunday night Youth Group.
At 7.15pm we attended the 7.15pm Church Service.
Sunday Night by Sunday night I looked up at the tall stained glass window
of The Crowned Lord Jesus Christ, the King of Kings,
Knocking at the door of my heart.
Time and time again I opened the door and asked Him in
but it felt like I was sitting in the foyer drinking coffee with me.
I longed for Him to come right into my heart.
I have learnt when I pray to let God answer in His time and His way.
This sometimes requires not only prayer and faith
but also patience and endurance.
It would be 31 years before my first memory of csa would surface.
During general counselling one day I suddenly recalled
that at the age of 14 the male Dept Principal of my high school had indecently assaulted me.
It would be 42 years before my mum finally disclosed that at an early age I was taken to their friend's house etc etc that the floodgates opened and my locked away memories flooded out and as as asked Jesus Christ to wash out my heart
and shine his light into the dark recesses of my heart
that I finally invited The Lord Jesus Christ into my heart. This time He came right in.
before that I had locked away memories too intense for a child to deal with,
memories of bad stuff my child's mind could not understand.
horrible memories of being sexually abused in my early years. Until then these memories were locked
away behind a bank vault door at the end of a long dark tunnel
guarded by guilt fear and shame .
now I was ready
now I had the strength, the preparation and resolve to deal with it.
At a certain point in my recovery I resolved to prayerfully write a recovery site
and based this site on Revelation Chapter 3 verse 20 - Opening my heart to Jesus Christ.
This site is my journey..